Why? oh why do I do it??
Why does it refuse to go away...
leave me in peace!!!!
why these dreadful nights when everything comes back to you. why cant it just disappear? Its like walking willingly into quicksand. It attracts me. I want to walk into it. And drown...
How stupid is that. Don't I have a life of my own? why should it be indebted to someone?Why should I not be able to be a complete person in my own right? why should it still haunt me?
Am I not the stupidest person in the world? Who in their right mind would long for something that refused to come to them. Mirage: thats what it was. And like a fool, I keep wanting to catch it. The biggest crime in this world is to be naive. To trust. To get hurt. And want to get hurt over and over again. I inflict it upon myself. I know. No one in their senses would go on like this for months. Its gone. It was never there. don't you understand. And the more you look for it, the farther it goes. And yet it attracts. It stalks its prey. Its on the prowl at night. It catches you off guard. In the middle of a conversation. In the middle of a class. And then it rips you apart. It hurts like hell. It frustrates. It brings out the negativity in you. It leaves you famished. It kills you bit by bit.
and you are stupid enough to let it walk over you.
5 comments:
Heyy!! waaay ta go!! luwd ur earlier write-ups better than the recent 2.. but then again guess evryone cant stay happy all along.. luw ur style of writin!!! Do chekout my blog at http://kaakiripookiri.blogspot.com
Cheers n keep em cumin!!!
I think I understand what you are going throug....a quote and hug for u:
"Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart"
Hang on there, things will be fine soon :)
thanks anonymous. beautiful quote.
i truly believe when someone losses someone or some thing He replaces it with something better. So instead of hanging on to the loss , find what He had replaced it with.sometimes things are closes then u believe them to be.
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